We are the Light Keepers, and we are Free

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We are the Light Keepers, and we are Free

Hi everyone, in reflecting on some of life’s big questions, I wanted to share a few stances I’ve arrived at on our purpose in life, and how we may consider living to it’s fullest, in hopes it may serve you in some way. Hope you like it.

“We complicate our existence believing we need to excel, we need to make the world a better place, we need all the material goods, we must eat purely, and we must live long. We do not. It is enough to exist in whatever capacity you are in.”

— bq

Art by Miles Johnston: https://www.milesjohnstonart.com/bio

What are we to do with our lives?

How do we make our lives meaningful? What is our purpose? And how on Earth, do I find myself in the predicament of a human being, part of a larger family, humanity?

Big questions. Ones that can be answered many different ways for many different people. Here’s how I see it..

Our lives are without inherent meaning. We must imbue our own.

Let’s start with purpose, where I do not believe there is intrinsic meaning to our lives. That there is a de facto purpose to be found or revealed. Or that we were put here intentionally. I believe we are brought into existence by chance and blind forces without an assigned purpose, playing out largely unconscious lives,

A bleak proposition at first glance, as our lives need meaning where we may gather hope and resilience. Purpose is what makes the pangs of the human condition tolerable. However, In light of this, I believe we must imbue our lives with meaning from within as it is not granted externally. Taking up the mantle of choosing meaning in the absence of evidence, in the absence of knowing. It is a brave act.

Nature, and the bigger picture, hold the key to our meaning

And to do this wisely as individuals, I believe we must consider our role in the context of our group, our species. Humanity. We are often deemed separate from nature. I disagree. To do so hurts us as humans and ignores the interconnectedness of all things. We are nature. The degree to which we are aware of our connection to every living thing is the degree to which we feel whole. I believe our purpose as individuals is not separate from our purpose as a species, and as part of nature and the wider cosmos.

We are the sons and daughters of nature.

What do I mean by this? I choose to believe humanity is the son of nature. I believe humanity is the most beautiful expression of nature yet. Nature has built a resilient planet to support and stabilize us as we wrestle with the gift and the burden we carry. Nature holds no hatred for us; nature knows the weight of our burden and like a mother’s sleepless nights tending to her children, nature gives her resources and her diversity to us as we need them, doing so freely, out of love. Trusting we will repair when and how we can.

Nature without a witness is nature without value

And if we are nature, what is our purpose? And what purpose has the cosmos? What is the use of Saturn’s stunning golden rings if never observed? Never had its beauty witnessed? I believe our earth, the universe, all of its stars and galaxies, have no value in the absence of an observer, a conscious witness to appreciate what exists.

Consciousness is unique to humans and gives the universe meaning

And there it is, our purpose: to carry the flame of consciousness which lights the beauty of the cosmos. In essence, I believe we are chosen by nature as its champion to steward its most precious creation: consciousness. The ability to know and appreciate the cosmos, to see and feel beauty; To see and feel sorrow. Nature knowing our monumental task of wielding a higher mind alongside our base animal instincts.

We are the Light Keepers and we are Free

So why are we here? And why do we matter? You ask and I answer: to tend to the flame. To keep the light within your alive. To be one of the 8 million light carriers, illuminating the dark from a tiny conscious corner of an unconscious universe. Making our earth and the cosmos as we witness it, discover it, an appreciate it. Truly the guardians of the light and the protectors of the flame. Each of us of infinite value, each of us so, so very precious.

Simply being alive is the most important thing

To tend to the flame, all we need to do is to be alive. To not let the flame inside you die. All that is required is to be. That is our purpose above all, to be alive. We complicate our existence believing we need to excel, we need to make the world a better place, we need all the material goods, we must eat purely, and we must live long. We do not. It is enough to exist in whatever capacity you are in. Because by existing you fulfill your highest calling, to guard the flame.

What are we to do with this freedom?

Knowing now I fulfill my highest calling simply by being. By getting by and nothing else need be done. I know I am free. Knowing this freedom, what am I to do? I choose to take up the purpose of my wider family – humanity - to be the observer, the witness and the appreciator of the beauty of our world and my life. And i do so from a place of virtue, not obligation. I believe in growing my flame, fanning the flame of others, and bringing new flames to the fold strengthening our collective conscious. And in doing so I honour the spark of the divine within us all. And in doing so, I have a hell of a good time while I'm at it.

Become the observer, the appreciator, and the experiencer of our nature

How do I do this? By supercharging my 5 human senses so I may appreciate beauty and joy to its fullest. As a species we have become apart from our nature, stuck in our heads, and not in our senses. We should return to nature and the present moment by living in our senses and bringing the abilities of our higher minds with us, made and ally, made as one through our training and efforts: a sense of touch like rolling lightning, smell visceral and discerning, taste decadent and full of texture, hearing in rich, full surround, and sight as sharp as a predator — all to the degree which they are available to us.

For we are the Light Keepers and we are Free.

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Halloween Haunting & Healing

Halloween Haunting & Healing

What’s happening folks! This article is to celebrate hunks out there making a difference, and today the feature is on a Brandon Kootnekoff. Brandon is a music creator, prop maker and a brain cancer survivor. He’s passionate about creating incredible Halloween displays in his hometown of Grand Forks, BC, where’s he been putting on haunted houses since 2013.

Brandon’s displays are about more than putting on a great show, they are about community -  drawing over 200 folks last year to his display.  The environments he creates takes each visitor through the tension and nervous-excitement of spooky, immersive, themed areas such as the aquatic Zombie Bay, and the Little Shop of Horrors. To make things Covid friendly last year, he adapted his display to become a drive by experience so folks could still have the full experience without leaving their vehicles.

Creating a world-class display is no small undertaking – so much so, to bring everything together he starts conceptualizing the display over the winter, then begins his prop development in the spring and summer (think one-of-a-kind life sized zombies, and monstrous venus fly traps) and come early fall he’s knocking out a few dry runs of the yard display to make sure everything turns out perfectly.

What motivates the man? In 2012, Brandon discovered he had a brain tumor and his life took a significant turn. He withdrew from his postgraduate studies, and began focusing on his healing journey. He found prop making and music creation help him stay focused, feel productive and express his creativity. In the early days of recovery, he easily got overwhelmed by loud noises and bright light. But, when he was creating music, he could tolerate it even if it was loud. These days, he has more stamina and can now work on his music all day long.

And you can tell. Brandon creates each of the spooky sounds and tracks incorporated into the display – an essential element to give the haunted house its trademark eeriness.

So what’s next for Brandon? He’s leaning into the music composition side, developing demos, and seeking out schools where he could collaborate with film students to produce music.

We salute you Brandon!

You can find out more at his Facebook site HERE, and if you don’t find yourself in the Kootenays over Halloween and want a taste of the action, check out this year’s spooky display tracks HERE.

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Affirm

"Moving with passion and acting with urgency"

We all need a pep talk sometimes. ..some of us more than others. Whether it’s before a key presentation, a first date, or just feeling like you're in a rut. Break up the pattern -- go ahead and beat the chest a bit. 

The focus below is on energy, motivation and attention. inject it with your own emotion and see how ya feel afterwards... 

 

AFFIRMATION #1 – “The next 5 minutes”
I am big. I am strong. And I am powerful.
I exude confidence and I teem with passion. Vibrancy and enthusiasm spill over my every side. I reach out and surround myself with the best of the best. I do this to form a diverse network of connection and expertise that motivate me to be better and launch me towards my goals.
I jump out a bed every morning with a burning desire to be productive. By rising early I get shit done before most are even awake. I do the worst first. I start where I stand and I eat the frog. I approach each day with a hunger – moving with passion and acting with urgency.
I am a master of detail. I catch every fact, every stat and every decimal point. Nothing gets past me. Every grain of detail matters. When people need accurate, perfect information, they come to me and I deliver. 
My name is _____, and I can do anything.
I will leave my mark on this world in the next 5 minutes, in the next 24 hours and in the next 365 days.
Thank you.
 

If that kind of thing is your flavour, try starting each day with it. Be sure to tailor it to your own mood and ambitions. You might just find you attack the morning with a bit more drive. 

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2016 Goals

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2016 Goals

Hey Everybody - B. Quirke here,

The 2016 goals decided they couldn't sit in a spreadsheet on my desktop any longer.  They decided they needed to be out in the world. In the open air of support, ridicule and enthusiasm.  

So, I obliged them.  

Welcoming any and all advice and support to see these ambitions through. If anything triggers for you, or I could help make a goal of your own happen, I'd be fired up to help.  

A glimpse into the wide-ranging romp that is my ideal 2016.. 

Finance

  • Increase income by 50% by Oct 1st, 2017
  • Invest savings using the global couch potato strategy - investment split evenly 4 ways between Canadian bonds, Canadian equity, American equity and international equity 
  • No phone data overages – 12 months without exceeding data allotment
  • 'Fliff Fridays' - create a small fund for spending money frivolously with friends and family on one friday every other month 

Professional

  • Organize a daily health challenge for co-workers (commit to donating to a cause you hate if you don’t stick to your healthy habit for 4 weeks e.g. Trump campaign)
  • Arrange and present ongoing research projects to a funding organization not currently tapped
  • Slash 10 hours from current work week through application of the 80/20 principle
  • Get first two publications as lead author into impactful journals
  • Discover my ‘one thing’, my specialization that makes me invaluable

New Territory

  • Participate in a poetry slam
  • Train brain to remember names, quantify progression
  • Paint a painting, display with friends at ‘Two Deep Breaths’ at the playground gallery
  • Release rnb/hiphop song w/ Luc J
  • Meet every month w/ life coach Clare C
  • Kick in a door purposefully 
  • Travel to Japan
  • Weekend getaways – Tofino and old growth, Seahawks game, Okanagan wine tour, Music Festival, Major trail hike, North shore snowshoe

Fitness and Health

  • Overnight oats and omelette each morning
  • Squat 2 plates
  • Secure and visit family doctor Colleen from Continuum Medical Care
  • Pistol squat butt to floor both legs
  • Max 1 small can (222 ml) of soda a day
  • Run a 21 k in Hawaii, run a 21 k in Japan

Connection

  • Secure mentorship from 3 individuals I look up to Montgomerie, Boygo and Kiloh
  • Sit down discussion with Dr. Goldenberg about potential projects or collaborations
  • Set up two friends on top notch suitable dates
  • Win the 2016 Gentlemen's Cup squash tournament

Community

  • Secure position as a weekly column writer for a men’s health resource
  • Launch Hunk Alerts, seek feedback in crafting communications, grow to 1000 members
  • Execute a community survey for a growing Vancouver non-profit
  • Give talk on ‘How Not to Get into Med School’ to UBC undergraduate students
  • Go on first podcast

Relationship

  • Smash unwatched Pixar flicks Wall-E, Brave, Ratatouille, The Good Dinosaur
  • Read every sonnet in Pablo Neruda’s top 100
  • Do monthly mindfulness training offered through work as accountability partners  

For each goal, I pair it with a sponsor (person who holds me accountable to each ambition) and my burning WHY (my motivation and what’s at stake). 

2016 - year of the hustle,

Billy

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2015 Goals Review

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2015 Goals Review

Hey everyone - B. Quirke here,

The past year stretched me in a lot of ways - 2015 was a year of rowdy goal setting resulting in some big successes and some magnificent botches. Instead of keeping them to myself, I figure I'd let folks know how the kid did. 

The goals I crushed highlighted areas I attacked with care and conviction, while the goals that crushed me exposed ambitions I set for my ego, and projects I was just interested in and not committed to. All told, a heck of a ride.

Here's what the process looked like for me:

  1. Oct/Nov/Dec 2014 - goal set - ongoing brainstorm 
  2. Dec 2014 select the best and group each into categories (see below)
  3. Jan 1st, 2015 GO TIME
  4. June/July 2015 conduct a mid year review on where I'm thriving/struggling
  5. Dec 2016 year end review

The unaccomplished goals at year's end were assigned 1 of 3 fates: pushed to the 2016 goals list, put on the bucket list or assigned a "nah, I'm over it" and SCRATCHED (my personal favourite) 

Categories:

  • New territory (new experiences, challenges to my comfort zone)
  • Fitness & Health (movement, strength, diet)
  • Finance ($$$)
  • Connection (is currency baby; creating deeper and broader relationships)
  • Community (giving back to friends, family, others)
  • Professional (all things 9-5)

So, how did they go?

New Territory:

  • Create a GOLD 8 tracks playlist, release w/ Squamish/Pemberton Fest -- NOPE --> Bucket List
  • Take 3 different dance classes at harbour dance center -- YUP
  • Publish an E-book blending men's health, aphorisms and self-discovery -- NOPE --> Bucket List
  • Try three 1.5 hour float room sessions -- YUP
  • Craft a Noir'N'B playlist -- YUP
  • Put up block letter "man in the arena" quote in kitchen -- YUP
  • Travel to Turkey/Greece, create sights and sounds video -- YUP
  • Finish writing personal manifesto -- NOPE--> 2016 Goal

Finance:

  • Break 2 squash rackets or less this year, you idiot -- YUP
  • put 20% down on a home in Vancouver -- NOPE --> Bucket List

Professional

  • Get first two publications as lead author into impactful journals -- NOPE --> 2016 Goal
  • Give a Tedx talk -- NOPE --> Bucket List
  • Build LinkedIn profile, hit 500+ connections -- YUP
  • Invest 200 hours in becoming a policy/program statistical evaluation guru -- NOPE --> Leave it
  • Update resume -- YUP
  • Secure mentorship from 3 individuals where you want to be -- NOPE --> 2016 Goal
  • Comment on half of Terry Boygo's blog posts, formally request his mentorship -- YUP

Fitness:

  • Run 42k in Vancouver -- NOPE --> Leave it
  • Run 21k in Greece -- YUP
  • Run 21k in Turkey -- YUP
  • Bench 185 comfortably w/ clean form -- YUP
  • Solidify 3 regular gym buddies-- YUP

Connection:

  • Attend a BNI Creekside network morning meeting -- YUP
  • Attend a mantalks event -- YUP
  • Organize and WIN the Gentlemen's cup squash tournament -- NOPE --> 2016 Goal
  • Attend 3 whiskey wiseman nights -- YUP
  • Throw a Christmas party -- YUP
  • Organize a work party at the UBC Biercraft -- YUP
  • Hold a rock/paper/scissors tournament w/ Jolly Brain Group -- NOPE --> Bucket List

Community

  • Strongly advocate 'Yes' for the March 2015 Metro Vancouver Transit vote -- YUP
  • Take a half day to purge the possessions I don't need, donate in person at Carnegie Community Centre -- YUP
  • Attend 2015 squash world open championship in Washington -- NOPE --> Leave it
  • 1.5 hours a week on Saturday mornings formalizing a weight training program for DTES folk in the Carnegie Community centre weight room -- YUP

Following the review, it was evident I needed to pull my socks up in my professional and financial life. I made them a priority for my 2016 goals. 

I'll follow up with a Pt.2 post digging into WHY some goals were achieved and not others (..so you want to run a marathon AND get your bench press up at the same time?), WHY I easily set 10 'New Territory' goals and a paltry 2 'Financial Goals' (..avoiding weaknesses) and WHY I could spend my precious time abroad exercising but couldn't write a simple email to mentors asking for help..

Best,

Billy

 

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